missing her besides of my window.........not in front anymore coz my room now is different from before..(at hometown la..)
so.. we can call that beside.....huhu
like the situation before... im just waiting for an answer ...
which is i feel like i know the answer..
but i avoid to admit it... not meant that im not ready to accept the truth of life but it is not confirm yet...... so this is my second week of holiday.... a holiday that i really aspect for a good mood or happy month of holiday...
but in the first week...... my mood is up and down....
how i want to say this ek...
my mood not good as im aspected... im happy coz i can be with my family but at the same time.. i feel like uncomfortable with this condition....mybe after i tell her the truth that im like her...
mybe im not the gentleman person which is say their love word by their own mouth....so im the fatty shy guy s doing the same thing but in shy way.....hahaha...just msg je la.....
so the truth of my feeling her knows rite now...
so i tell her a bit how my feeling and how i can accept her answer.... which is either the positive or negative. i realize that this is not the simple to answer coz this is about life... but i can tell her now.. i feel that our relation as frenz more important.....coz i know we know each other not for along time... just within a year... so the "love" statement mybe not suitable for us for this time...
but if we still frenz , thats mean we can know each other more.....
but i think i just do a mistake...
a mistake thats happen before.... which is... the friendship relation has broken because of this love feeling.... not the first time.. but twice..... that make my mind think that "loving people is a mistakes????" everyday im think of it.... because in the past situation...
after i tell that girl that im like or love her.....
our relation as a friend automatically broke.... so i cant contact her anymore....
this make me think that i cant make this friendship broke like before.........
if this happen again..... i really dont know how to say.......
but.. i think it will happen again...
but the symptom2 of that will be happen appear lately....
not a complains..... just telling the situation.....
like hard to chat with her.....
then , like i said before when we love someone...
we must want to know wat shes doing,wat she eat during lunch or dinner..,shes ok or not....
all kind of things about her we want to know...
but at the same time we want to see her happy rite......
so if she s not happy with things that we do..we should stop rite??........
but the things that i want to say this.... im not the good person but i will try my best....as i can
thats my promise...
because of that i think i will let the things run it self.....
give her time,space..... all that she need for this matter....
if she have the answer.. she will let me know... mybe...
so my decision is this... i ll be waiting......
how long i ll wait????
just time will decide it....
coz in this life we just plan the things...
not setting the things with our will....
i hope the best for us.....
flower like a rose is beautiful.....
beautiful like u......
u know wat i feel just now....
i feel i miss u....
sky was blue......
like the sea with the light blue....
one day im not chat with u....
i dnt no wat to do.....
my color is red...
like a rose with it good smell...
my heart is getting red...
only god can tell......
beautiful color like a rainbow.....
many color..beautiful color...
i know im not the one in row.......
but i can be the best lor......
dont drive if dnt have the license........
if u get caught that is trouble for u....
so you know every seconds in my life.......
is use to remembering you..........
thats it.......
so... with my window close i feel getting hot rite now....
mybe someday ill open it for sure...
so with my window close...
i want to get shower......byebye...
:p
