LoVe story... episode 8 FiNALE........

today still near at my window.. missing her as usual..
im being brave to write this..coz its hard form me to finish my story..for this time coz it is
the ending...
why i said this?? because this is the finale...
finale of expression of my feelings...coz this story is about my heart as a story teller..
tell the story....
so this is my second month of holiday which is will end very soon..
the situation rite now.. is quite similar from before...with a question marks in my head..
yes.. i still contact her.. not much but ade la... but thats it.. just say helo..
hmm.. nothing beside that..wat i heard and i saw.... she still epi.. even tough without me..
yes we r not in relationship yet.. but my i feel that my existences in her life are not invited or not available...
so i just wanna to say this... "i will understand and go away" this just for a moment.. i also in confusing situation rite now.. im not so tough to do that actually.. because of scared.
im cannot lie that i can let her go that easily.... the truth is i feel scared to lost her in my life..
not because im cant face the reality but its quite hard. like when we were hav something special
and when we love smbody....so we want to he/she with us 4ever rite..???
so do i.......
but wat i realize now that im not for her.. this time mybe... coz i know she has target with her stdy or future life. so i will let her do wt her wants....hope she wil success.. ill wil pray for that.....
if she's found someone else???
if that boy can take her to happiness.... i accept that...
at least she will be happy with her life....
my life???
just running as usual...coz im also have a goal to archieve...
its just to make my life better.....other than that i hav responsibilities ..
so i need to settled it first.
in this holiday period also.. everyday i just think...think.. and think..
about wat??
her..my life...
when i say about her... of course la i miss her..coz its always bear in my mind..
but i also think that i need to stop to disturb her.. like i said before.. i want to giv her space for her life which is the truth that i know.. which is i have no right to force her..or to make her talking or chat wit me everyday..
talking about her.... that the other day my college held a event..
and unfortunately i hav to be in kl about two three days..
so i decide to go there.. just to see her..:p
but that day is not my luck i think.. just look around.. and then go back..
so wat i think for my life??????????
that all know that our responsibilities to family..
that ill put at first place..
coz family is very important for every people on earth..
erm...thats 2 3 things that i can shared.. the others is not necessary i think...:)

MASSAGE 4 Her :-
sori for disturbing.. mybe my way of doing this things make u uncomfortable
hepi to knowing u.. coz u r one of the cutest that ive ever seen for this time..:)
if u a bird... u have a wings to fly...so just fly wherever u want..but PLZ take care of ur self k..
coz im quite worried here.....
if we r not meeting after this day.......if you remember me as a frenz.that will be okay..im hepi for that..
im doing this not mean that i give up..it just i try to believe this............
if u r mean to be with me... the day will come.. if r not.. im hepi for ur happiness..
coz ur smile is my smile..if ur lips draw a smile......so i will be hepi..
just that.. coz i know.. many people is better than me out there...
so dun worry .. i will pray the best for u.. even tough without me......
all the very best to you.......
my feelings to you ..ill keep in my drawer of my heart....ill lock it
coz.. thats one of my memory is to knowing you..and..
ill be waiting to see ur future..ok my cute frenz
so thank you.....
very much.....

for me.. i must face the reality..wat happen before cant be reverse..coz the future is coming...
i know everyone hope that the love stories will be happy ending..
so do i..
but this time..
my story ends...
with a sad/epi feelings..
so......
thats one of my heart can tell...........
after this....
mybe a new story..........
new life............
hope the best for us..for all......

sincerely from me.........
from my heart.........
so good bye........
so this time i will open my window wide....
prepared for a begining of a new story mybe...






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.:bisik2:. berat ati la.... hmmm......................................

aku mendung..........

arini just tikar pic ...
sebab..
ari ni aku mendung..
aku mendung



.:bisik2:. otw pasar malam.. spe2 nk order????

Gallery 5.. finale..galeria de gabei..

hye again.....

ha.. ari ni galery de gabei.. apakah???

haha.. this is the time that my pic online...

ni la hasil yg terakhir..

wt mse ni la..

setelah cbe try n test or eksperimen.....

so this is me... makin bulat....:p

ni mase mkn kt luar...yg pasti.. meja tu no 4.........

kt kenduri.... tgk org karok....

ni plak kt t'ganu......

kt jb.......

mase mkn............time gotong royong..:)

ni??? berselubung dlm kegelapan.....

ni?? pylon tower da....

home sweet home.........

ni la hasil2 terakhir...

setelah masa yg lapang giler terisi..

benda alah ni akan di update lg..

di masa akan datang.........

so.. tq for watching...

huhuhuhu

...

ok la mybe next time story lain lak.......

ok bye :)

.:bisik2:. arini ari bapa ek...?? so slmt ari bapa... teringat lak kt abah....:(

gaLLery 4........... si comel..

hye.. kali ni.. galery akan dibuka..khas,.. tuk my comel2 nih...

my niece la.....

akaknye aishah..adik nye ain...

pic atas nih ..kt umah mk ngah aku..

die men buai.. pakcik die pun jd mcm die gak la..

men same..huhuhu

pic ni plak..kt pekan riverfront...

tepi river.. :p

apehal la bdk nh peluk tiang???

huhu ..

yg nih.. imej bertudung....

x tau la tudung ape die pakai yuna tidak,waheeda tidak......

tp yg pasti tudung mak die la..

huhuh...

lastly.. galery pada ari ini akan d tutup... dgn pic anak2 di pantai..

lokasi: T.C (teluk cempedak)

so itu je kot .. ade satu lg.. galleria de GABEi..

tggu......

.:bisik2:. bru balik pasar malam.. jom mkn jom.... :p

gallery 3...... childhood frenz...

ni pic mase zaman bru blaja mengaji... kt atas ni .. my childhood frenz..

kire paling rapat la..

dh besar nih.. haluan dh lain2..

hope masing2 berjaya.. dgn haluan masing2..

yg ni plak mase nk present nasyid....

lgu ape pun aku dh lpe.. lg pun aku dok blakang mse tu..

so hentam sje la..

mane taknye lirik x ingat... hehehe..........

.:bisik2:. mate x leh pejam lg nih....nk edit.. tenet lak lem..

GaLLery 2..... FamIliA de GAbei

erm.. yg atas ni my father....mcm kt blog page tu...

yg bawah ni pulak my beloved mama...

bwh ni plak.. makan2.... syok ooo. duit x kluar lg masyuk kih3....

my family...

raye thn lepas.. xde tema..eh jap2.. aku sorang je x bertema huhuhu

manz in black..:p

hehe... sje je wt tontonan..

sementara episode 8 tgh shooting lg..

so... enjoy k..

ok la.... mybe... jap2 lg ker aku post lg...

ok..

.:bisik2:. aku bru prasan perut dh membulat.... alamak.. diet2!!!!!!

gallery 1...... frenz@memory

ni edisi yg pertama..

pic kt atas ni mase mlm oskar.....

bawah ni..

gotong royong makan sdap..kih3..

bawah ni pulak.. mase english day........

wt mainan dam ular..... gergasi wooo!!!

yg ini... business day......kitorang wt mushroom..goreng..

mcm x laku tp bawak balik 2 hamper... so we r the winner huuhuhu

bwh ni plak...kt lumut.........

otw nk g pangkor.....

so.. tomorrow...

another..

k bye..:)

.:bisik2:. nk g dataran jap r. nk cri skrin besar..ape lg.. bola la..:P

alamak...syoknyer!!!

hehehe ......

post kali ni aku sje..je.. coz selain drp main api..

tetibe je aku minat suatu benda nih..hehe..bkn ape..

edit pic je.

skali wt xde pape.. wt lg skali.. mcm syok jer..

best jgk... men benda alah ni..

ade mase aku post pic2 tu..

ni masih dlm process..

so just wait..

huhuhu...

tp aku tau korang pun pandai edit kan..

hebat la korang..

aku bru je nk try2.

huhu ok la..'jap g nk kne kuar..

amik adik aku ...

bru balik dr jb..

k..

.:bisik2:. haus lak tekak nih... jom g minum.........:P

bile aku ke pantai 2........

hye.. again........

sebenarnya... dh lme aku post pantai siri 2 nih huhu......

disebabkan mase xde... main api... tenet kdg2 yg memperlahankan diri die...tu yg x sempat..

so..

aritu aku ade cte sal pantai kn..esoknye tu.. aku ke pantai lg..

tempat lain...bukan teluk dh..kali ni persisiran pantai......

demi meneman akakku ngan family bru die bersiar2..jd aku dgn secara x langsung..

kne ikut.. so.. pegi je r..

aktiviti??

xde wt pe kot..

dok menanguk(menung) kat tepi air je.. sambil ank2 sedara akak aku yg tersebut..

mendapat kan kenangan..huhu ape lg.. bergambar la..

aku????

sendirian tanpa teman menapak ke tepi laut......huhu..

pastu dh mls dok tepi air.. aku naik lak menara life saver... ntah betul ke x aku eja nih....

atau pun menara tinjau.. takut2 org lemas..

tp xde org kot..

so aku naik dn duduk.. memerhati laut.....

ape yg aku nmpk.........??

kanak2 bermain air....yg mane bermain pasir... bajet nk bina istana idaman la tu...hehe..

tp x tinggi2 pun istana diorang.. agaknye die nk wt umah teres je kot hahahaha....

lg.... sekumpulan layang2. yg belum terputus talinya.....huhu... terbang coz angin yg x henti2..

di sini la aku rse suatu kenyamanan n kedamaian....

sambil angin menerpa...ditambah bunyi ombak..yg memutih......

dtg la memori2 yg tbe2 dok kaco.........

mane x nye.. tbe2 aku teringat org....

hmm.. ntah la.. mcm sentimental lak aku rse kt tepi laut tu..

huhu...nk tulis kt dinding menara tu.. dh penuh dgn name couple2 yg berteriakan agaknye...

menyemai kasih hehehe...tp agak2 la.. nk tulis kt dinding..kn dh xde tmpt aku nk tulis..

hmm..

tp klu ade tempat pun.. aku nk tulis nme spe ek??

tkn nme aku je kot

hahaha.. nnt org ckp aku gile.....

xde ape la tu.. coz vandalisme adalah dilarang.:p

so smbil2 tu dr atas tu..tertarik dgn keletah bdk kecik nih...

berlari2 diatas pntai... tp mcm x tau nk kemane...kejap kedepan.

kejap nnt pusing ke laut lak..hahah...

tp aku rse.. sume yg serabut sebelum nih ilang....

dn secara kimia yg aku pekse dpt C tu....

aku kini lebih tenang.......

aman damai........

so sebelum aku berambus dri situ aku pk.. baik aku nikmati puas2..........

ketenangan ni coz slepas ni ape yg dtg kite x tau...........

but.. im ready.......

to face the reality.......not to running away.....

coz im a supermanz......

hahahahahha

ok la..

next time lak..

k..

.:bisik2:. tgh cri pic nk di edit..tp mulut nk mengunyah jer.. sape2 ade makanan.. nak!!!!...

bile aku ke pantai...............

semalam aku ke pantai........

waktu: malam (world cup 1st match)

lokasi : teluk cempedak........

hehe.

meneman org bersiar2.... bukan ape.. bukan selalu outing mlm2 nih.

smpai2 jer..mcm ade event besar je kt situ..

mane x nye ramai org masuk ke dalamnyer. ..

aku wt dek je la..dpt parking.....trus kelaut la..

eheheh...

sorang2 turun kelaut..eh2.. ke pantai la....memerhatikan suasana malam.....

memang indah...bile pndg ke depan je la........

klu pndg ke kiri..... couple2 yg bahagie gamaknyer.... bercerita pasal laut..

klu pndg ke kanan pulak... group gadis2 single dok bercerita...

pndg jauh sikit lg.. berkilauan flash2 x kire la phone ke SLR ke.digital ker..

diorng ni bukan ape.. tangkap gambar..

tapi aku tau gmbr ape yg wajib atau mesti ade.......

GAMBAR KAKI..... hahahahha

x kisah la.. post bintang,bersilang,kepit,kangkang....... pape la.. tapi sume tu kaki...haha

mybe ade yg bru bli kasut..crocs. show off la ckit kn..

alik2 mane pergi pic tu???? FB la..........kan x3??? hihihii

aku??

tgk kedepan..menikmati buih2 ombak yg memutih....didalam kelam malam..

menikmati desiran ombak yg merdu..bush...bush..

eh2.bush2 tu bkn mandi pakai cebok ker

'hahhha.. biarkan la..effect rosak kot huhuhu :p

menikmati..angin malam..... yg lembut menerpa pipi ku yg makin gebu nih...hehehe..

sume ni wt aku tenang seketika....hilang segala kusut masai,simpul mati dan sewaktu dgnnye....

indah,damai, permai......................... :)

dh abis tgk laut... dok la rehat2..

smbil mata melihat sekeliling............(mata nakal bese la..) hehe

tepegun gak dgn bakat or anugerah pelukis jalanan...ala yg lukis potret2 tu..

setiap kali pensil nye berhenti...... akan terhasil lah lukisan..

cantik.... aku tgk kemiripan rupa pada kertas tu..

mmg menarikkan ati..

teringin gak nk wat.....tp..

xpela.... nextime mybe..

ujan dah.......

pe lg balik la....

huhu..

ok la....

dh ngantok r......

sok plak.. ade lg nih..

ok nyte & morning!!!!

.:bisik2:. kekeringan di awal bulan..so phm2 je r..:P

kt sane kenduri .. kat sini pun kenduri...mkn3x!!!!!!

hye.. kali ni nk cte sal kenduri..

kenduri ape?? kawen la...huhuu.. bru minggu lpas aku bedal 5 bijik umah kenduri.

bukan bedal umah la.. batu kayu wt pe nk bedal hahaha.. nasi la..

aku rse bulan ni dh pecah rekod.. kawen sana cni..huhu

smlm je 2 biji umah dh aku g.... pe lg makan jer la..'

alhamdulillah rezki nasi minyak org..

tgh ari ni.. ade 3 lg... huhu.. sesak tank aku.. bkn ape.. teman mak nye pasal....

sedara ramai..

xpe lgpun mkn free kn..hihihihi......

aku ade gak terpk.. bulan jun ni bleh di tabalkan bulan kekawenan satu malaysia..

coz time ni la paling bnyk umah yg menemukan dua hati menjadi satu,pinang di belah dua, kelopak jantung kelopak jantung....yg skang ni dh moden.. pakai kompang.mp3...

nasibla xde kompang 3d.. or mva,video etc. mcm dh ilang je fenomena kompang kt malaysia ni..

mane2 je kite pegi..klu ade rezki la,.. kompang berdentum dentam.. tgk2.. mp3 da..

hehe..

aku pnye kenduri???

aku ker??????????

insyaallah.. mybe akan datang...

mybe bile......

dh ade calon..

dh ade tabung..

dh ade RM22.5 @ RM300 @ rm80 ( yg wajib)

dh ade bajet 20**

dh ade ekonomi sendiri.

dh ade pondok berteduh..

dh ade kaki nk berjalan...

dh ade..... pape yg patut..:P

tp.. stdy aku nk abiskn dulu..

tetapkn..itu.. tetapkan ini..

bru meriah nnt.. insyaallah.

korang aku jemput jgn risau la..

kire time ni je aku berpeluang open table besar besaran..

jemput mkn yer..:p

.:bisik2:. bukak dompet..ohh tidak!!! mimpi kn je jwbnyer..

new looks!!!! hahaha i like....i like!!!!

hahaha.. hye2..

erm dh cti nk masuk bulan yg kedua nih sje je ubah angin ckit........

dgn mood yg naik turun nih. aku sje nk ubah ckit..deco2..blog nih..

korang bukak je mesti teruja..huhu. ape?? korang x teruja??

xpe2 aku teruja.. huhu..

bkn ape..

bkn aku lpekan warna merah aku tu...

just this time i need darkness...

wah!!! ayat kontroversi x??

haha

xde la..

mcm spiderman la.. merah tu konon baik la.. hitam tu jahat...

so aku dh tukar dr merah ke itam....... so this time is my darkness post.........

hehehe

xde la gwau jer.. tp

mybe akan laser mane tau..

klu terasa aku x tau..sori je k..

kdg2 ckp berlapik pun x makan...so kite tembak je..

aku baik??? x knal lg kot..

huhuhu.. aku jahat??? nilai la sndiri..

so pnjg lak.. pape pun this is me..still me..

so bye2..

.:bisik2:. intro je bru.. tgguuu........

cik B........antara ubi atau tibi !!!!

hye......

termasuk ari ni 2 mlm dh cik B singgah umah...

bukan masuk umah pun.. sje pusing2 kebun........

die cakap nk cari ubi... ha?? cari ubi ape mlm2..?

memang la aku nk cri ubi.... aku kan b*** mestila cri makan malam2...

eh2 mcm aku borak je ngan die hahahaha..

xde ari ni ubi kt kebun tu di gali lagi.. yang mane pokok yg tegak abis tumbang ke bumi...

ubi?? abis di makan la.. oleh cik B..aka B*** nk sebut ker??

mls la hihi

phm2 je la...

nnt sian korang nk kne jirus air tanah kt korang nye laptop...

rupe2 nyer ade lobang la dkat pagar sebelah kebun tu... mane tak nye diorang sefamily leh

cari makan kt dlm kebun nih..

hmm...

nasib la senapang dh xde. klu x siap abis ditembak la..

tapi hanya dgn idungnyer.. die mampu menggali ubi....

nk kata kuku ........ xde..

tgn? lg xde........

itulah fungsi masing2..

tapi ia tetap haram..

huhu..

ok la..

ari ni just ctory2

bout ubi yg dimakan b***...

k bye..

p/s b*** = Kinjir..:p