Rindu..............

ntah kenapa arini aku rasa rindu sgt2........

korang mesti nk kate aku rindu kt aweks or ape...

yg tu kes lain......

tapi kali ni rindu aku membuak2 coz arini

14 Mei............

tarikh yg akan aku igt smpai ble2.....

ari lahir abah aku la.. kebetulan sme ngan adik aku ...so tu yg wat aku rindu sgt2 kat abah.........

mane x nye abah aku dh pergi... walaupun dh 2 thn lebih.... rindu aku kat abah x pernah padam...

aku rase adik beradik aku pun rse mcm tu jugak.. rindu kt abah..

hmm.. nangis air mata darah sekali pun............

aku tau abah x kan balik..................

abah............

man igt lg mse man kecik....

abah sikatkn rambut mase nk g skolah......

memang sakit klu abah sikat........kuat sgt...........

tapi skang ni sikat pun sendiri... dh besar kn.... tapi rindu la.....

nak rse abah sikat rambut.............

abah..........

man igt lagi tali pinggang yg 2 inci tu.......

abah rotan man........ina pun kene.......

akak ngan abang pun pernah merasa.......

memang sakit...tapi sbb nk mengajar kite orang......

man terima ......sume tu tuk kebaikan kiteorang kan..

abah............

man igt lagi..... mase moto vespa putih abah tu rosak....

abah suruh man tolak..........

tapi man balik ikut jalan shortcut....

tp waktu tu man segan la abah......

tapi tu yang man igt smpai skang.......

rindu nak naik moto ngan abah...

abah..................

man igt lagi...........waktu raye dlu.....

kite 6 orang first time amik gmbar.......

sume bdn besar2.....

abis sofa tu penuh....last2 man ngan ina kene duk bawah............:)

rindu la waktu tu............kite epi sgt abah........

abah...................

man igt lg slalu klu bday abah sampai........

kek pun mesti dua.....................

man tau satu tu tuk ina........

time tu la kiteorg mkn bnyk2..................

abah..................

man igt lagi mase ina dh nk spm......

abah lyn die bukan maen lg.........

man jeles btul mase tu sebab man x merasa mcm tu........

tapi abah.. tgk la skang ...

spm ina pun ok... klu abah sempat tengok mesti abah epi....

abah...............

man igt lagi sebelum abah pergi.......

abah asyik marah man.............

skang ni man dh tau sebab nye..........

ade tggungjawab nak kne galas.............

abah..............

man igt lagi... mase abah nk pergi....

man sempat tgk abah senyum...

mcm xde ape yg berlaku.....

tapi abah tiba2 sakit........

man x tau nk wt ape abah........

kaku man rase........

abah...........

man igt lagi. mase abah baru je pergi.........

rase terharu pulak yg abah diiring kereta peronda.......

macm bg perhargaan kt abah..

sbb abah polis.............

abah......

man igt lagi mase talkin di bace..............

sayu kami abah.............

tgk pusara abah yang masih merah..........

sedih tu x tau la nk ckp...........

tapi kite kene trima gak kan...........

abah.........

man igt lagi........ mak ade bgtau yang abah ade cerita ngan mak........

klu kiteorang sume dpt masuk U.. rapat mata abah...........

klu abah bleh tgk skang......

alhamdulillah abah.............

dr abang hingga la ina..............

sume dh selamat masuk U................

abah....

ari ni sampai lagi.....

xde lg sambutan yang mcm dlu..............

kebetulan ari abah ni thun ni kne ari jumaat ..........

hanya doa n air sebagai adiah.......

doa akan berterusan selagi nyawa dikandung badan.......

insyaallah.....

abah...

man harap abah selamat kt sane.......

kami xkn lupekan jasa abah......

kami sygkn abah...rindu abah.......

dr hati anakmu...

selamat hari lahir abah!!!!!

LoVE StoRY episode 7........................

missing her besides of my window.........not in front anymore coz my room now is different from before..(at hometown la..)

so.. we can call that beside.....huhu

like the situation before... im just waiting for an answer ...

which is i feel like i know the answer..

but i avoid to admit it... not meant that im not ready to accept the truth of life but it is not confirm yet...... so this is my second week of holiday.... a holiday that i really aspect for a good mood or happy month of holiday...

but in the first week...... my mood is up and down....

how i want to say this ek...

my mood not good as im aspected... im happy coz i can be with my family but at the same time.. i feel like uncomfortable with this condition....mybe after i tell her the truth that im like her...

mybe im not the gentleman person which is say their love word by their own mouth....so im the fatty shy guy s doing the same thing but in shy way.....hahaha...just msg je la.....

so the truth of my feeling her knows rite now...

so i tell her a bit how my feeling and how i can accept her answer.... which is either the positive or negative. i realize that this is not the simple to answer coz this is about life... but i can tell her now.. i feel that our relation as frenz more important.....coz i know we know each other not for along time... just within a year... so the "love" statement mybe not suitable for us for this time...

but if we still frenz , thats mean we can know each other more.....

but i think i just do a mistake...

a mistake thats happen before.... which is... the friendship relation has broken because of this love feeling.... not the first time.. but twice..... that make my mind think that "loving people is a mistakes????" everyday im think of it.... because in the past situation...

after i tell that girl that im like or love her.....

our relation as a friend automatically broke.... so i cant contact her anymore....

this make me think that i cant make this friendship broke like before.........

if this happen again..... i really dont know how to say.......

but.. i think it will happen again...

but the symptom2 of that will be happen appear lately....

not a complains..... just telling the situation.....

like hard to chat with her.....

then , like i said before when we love someone...

we must want to know wat shes doing,wat she eat during lunch or dinner..,shes ok or not....

all kind of things about her we want to know...

but at the same time we want to see her happy rite......

so if she s not happy with things that we do..we should stop rite??........

but the things that i want to say this.... im not the good person but i will try my best....as i can

thats my promise...

because of that i think i will let the things run it self.....

give her time,space..... all that she need for this matter....

if she have the answer.. she will let me know... mybe...

so my decision is this... i ll be waiting......

how long i ll wait????

just time will decide it....

coz in this life we just plan the things...

not setting the things with our will....

i hope the best for us.....

flower like a rose is beautiful.....

beautiful like u......

u know wat i feel just now....

i feel i miss u....

sky was blue......

like the sea with the light blue....

one day im not chat with u....

i dnt no wat to do.....

my color is red...

like a rose with it good smell...

my heart is getting red...

only god can tell......

beautiful color like a rainbow.....

many color..beautiful color...

i know im not the one in row.......

but i can be the best lor......

dont drive if dnt have the license........

if u get caught that is trouble for u....

so you know every seconds in my life.......

is use to remembering you..........

thats it.......

so... with my window close i feel getting hot rite now....

mybe someday ill open it for sure...

so with my window close...

i want to get shower......byebye...

:p

~MIStErI CerMin~

cermin...

C..E..R..M...I..N...

sume org tau pasal cermin...

lpas mandi cermin... pkai bju... cermin... makeup... pun cermin.....

hidup kte ni mesti x lari dr cermin kn...

mcm aku sendiri pun cermin x lari...coz.. cermin ni btul2 tepi pintu kuar bilik.. so ari2 jumpe cermin hik3.....

hmm... tau x cermin ni bnyk misterinya...

maksud aku misteri tu bkn la yg seram2 just kegunaan yang pelbagai... mcm plasma kot x tau la btul ke x...sebutnyer.. coz lme dh tggl sekolah...:p..

masuk putih..

keluarnyer... rainbow kn...

so yg pertama....yg besa

aktiviti harian... pkai bju..sikat rmbut ke..

kedua...... besa la jgak...

meletuskn..gunung berapi....hehehe.. jerawat la... klu yg tgh hangat bercinta tu..

mesti jerawat besar2 hahaha...

ketiga..... jarang2...mybe xd ramai kot yg buat...

rehearsal dpn cermin... xkire la interview ke.. public speaking.. tuk keyakinan diri la katanye..

keempat... ni yg aku kdg2 buat..

klu mood xde or emo tetiba..... dpan cermin tu.. try senyum ngan org depan...

tgk die balas x?? klu die balas tu makne nye ok..klu x???? ntah la...:p

x pun tgk betul2... klu kite monyok jer.. tgk la cermin... lawa sgt ke kte monyok hahaha..

msti skali je tgk...huhuhu.. so smile to mirror like u smile to ur self.. so it will help u to recover from sadness.... jst try... :)

yg kelima.......ni yg kdg2 kite kne slalu buat.....

maksud aku kt cni....

kdg2 kite ni ... x tau la mybe korang lain situasinyer...

sng cte la.. kdg2 kite ni terlupa mane kita berasal... sape diri kite yg sebenarnyer....

ape perangai nyer... baik kite.... buruk kite......kdg2 terlupe @ terleka dgn mainan dunia...

aku x ckp org laen ok... masing2 dh besar...boleh pk sendiri

aku sendiri pun sme jgk la...kdg2 biasalah terlupa diri....perasan bagus...over.....

so dgn cermin ni la.. kite leh tgk balik... spe diri kita...

betul ke tidak haluan yg kite pilih..... sebagai jln tuk muhasabah diri.. betulkn yg mane x betul...

so ni yg buat aku pk...... bnyk btul perkara yg kite buat selama ni salah....patut la org x suke.....

kdg2 jgk... tgk cermin mmg la igt.. nk berubah.. tapi...

x berubah jugak.. so...diri sendiri yg tentukan....

itu lah..

antara misteri cermin..

bkn nk tembak spe2..jst kongsi jer....

aku pun bnyk kurangyer......

so sori 4 that... aku ni manusia biase...

x perfect.....

ok la tu je kot wt mase ni.. ade bnda len aku stori..

k salam...

:p

kucing oh kucing npe msuk dlm ENJIN !!!!!

td aku ade post kt fb sal tjuk ni... sme mcm kt comment la...

kucing mati dlm enjin....

:( cian...

mula2 camni... td aku nk g kenduri,, start la enjin kete.......

smbil lyn lagu kt radio... enjin standard wira 1.5 cc yg roadtax mati lmbt lg ni.. mcm tersedak...

pastu nmpk anak kucing berlari dr bwh kete,,

dh nmpk kucing tu.. sje je la aku nk tgk.. bukak je bonet.....

astagfirullah.... sekor anak kucing.. tersangkut kt gear bwh timing belt kete,,,

tgk je kt area tu... darah merecik..... isi2 daging.. kulit... melekat kt sana cni...

so tgk balik.. kucing tu dh tersangkut kt gear tu..

keadaannye????

agak ngeri jgak la...

coz........ boleh ckp terburai isi perut... erm.. klu nk ikut kn..mmg aku x prasan yg kucing ade bwh kete tu......

so amik mase ckit la.. nk tarik kucing tu kuar... kucing xde la besar.. anak2 lg.....

kesian jgk aku tgk.. tp makhluk tuhan kn... dh dpt tarik.. letak r dlm plastik.. igt balik kenduri bru tanam.....

blik je kenduri.. anak kucing tu dh xde..

klu ikut yg sebelum ni la.. anak kucing klu mati.. mak die akan amik...

igt dh bwk jauh dh...

bru je aku basuh tmpt kejadian..

sje la pusing satu umah... last2..

ank kucing tu ade kt tpi pintu kecik kt blakang umah ni...

so.. cpt2 aku cri cangkul...

g kt depan.. amik kaki yg terputus tu,, skalikan n tanam..

so sume dh selamat.......

tp papepun.. x leh lpe la aku rse..

bau kucing ni pun lekat lg kt aku.......

ade gak td dgr mak kucing tu mengiau... sayu je bunyi...

mane x nyer... mati anak........ tu yg aku pk...kucing pun reti sedih anak mati......

inikan kita manusia........

dlm paper pun bnyk yg ade kes... buang anak la... mcm2..

mintak jauh jer...

papepun...

berserah kepada Allah S.W.T........

segala yg berlaku..pasti ade hikmah disebaliknye.....

k salam..